When I am anxious or uncertain my first recourse is to have a plan, a checklist, a blueprint. I think, let me get out my template and do a two year and a five year plan. In other words let me get some control over this beast called uncertainty. What I have discovered over the last several weeks as I have explored and put myself back into what I am loosely calling, “the space”, is that these kinds of plans are obsolete and unhelpful. Change is moving so swiftly that it is hard to plan beyond the present moment. If I plan for a year from now based on what is now, my plan most certainly will not be modern or perhaps even relevant. In many ways this is wonderful because it offers so many unthought of possibilities. If of course I can control my anxiety when nothing much is happening.
Throughout my life the “elevators” that have carried me up have for the most part been institutions, like schools , organizations and agencies (social service and now on the other side of the spectrum, modeling). Yet there has always been a little disconnect for me within these structures. I am always torn between safety and my need to be in motion. My brain and sometimes my body is always going faster than the “elevator” can take me up. Or there have not been enough floors to take me as high as I wish to go. They also create layers and rules about those you are really there and want to interact with. I don’t like closing doors that leave some people behind. It has something to do with how long it takes established structures to change, to move and to protect themselves. The revelation I have had this week is that I have been somewhat out of sync with all the eras and elevators that I have lived and traveled inbefore. Happily, my body and brain is finally living in a cultural moment that suits my nature. I think this is why I have become somewhat organically successful by just putting myself in this “space”. It is diving into deep dark water and not knowing what you will find or how you might look when you break the surface on the way up. Wow, makes me feel like getting off the elevators and taking my own little self into the big wide world.
Where would you take a “walk” to?
I have the original of this Louis Vuitton bag…but alas, mine has no holes! Sniff! I wonder if I should pop out my scissors and create my own!
This bag was done by Rei Kawakubo for a limited edition to celebrate the anniversary of this particular brown canvas logo. A number of designers were invited to create a bag and this was her version. The bag that comes with the purse to cover it is put in the inside to hold contents so you won’t lose them. It is yet another way she expresses her sly sense of humor in her design. So no scissors to your classic!
I have the original of this Louis Vuitton bag…but alas, mine has no holes! Sniff! I wonder if I should pop out my scissors and create my own!
This bag was done by Rei Kawakubo for a limited edition to celebrate the anniversary of this particular brown canvas logo. A number of designers were invited to create a bag and this was her version. The bag that comes with the purse to cover it is put in the inside to hold contents so you won’t lose them. It is yet another way she expresses her sly sense of humor in her design. So no scissors to your classic!
I would love to talk the elevator to confidence. One day it is there and the next gone.
I guess that’s what they mean by trust the process, keep your eye on the road whether it is clear and smooth or bumpy and rough.
I would love to talk the elevator to confidence. One day it is there and the next gone.
I guess that’s what they mean by trust the process, keep your eye on the road whether it is clear and smooth or bumpy and rough.
Living in the moment with nature is the best walk to take.
Nature, and the beauty of it, is constantly changing, it is resourceful, innovative , powerful and beautiful. The artifice of the man made world is often so lacking in the qualities of nature.
My fear is how restrictive man’s thoughts can be in protecting and loving nature.
So true and disheartening that we as a society do not cherish and value this as we should. Endless inspiration.
Living in the moment with nature is the best walk to take.
Nature, and the beauty of it, is constantly changing, it is resourceful, innovative , powerful and beautiful. The artifice of the man made world is often so lacking in the qualities of nature.
My fear is how restrictive man’s thoughts can be in protecting and loving nature.
So true and disheartening that we as a society do not cherish and value this as we should. Endless inspiration.
When uncertainty and anxiety reach a critical mass in my mind, I take a time out and do some yoga. I just recently started, and it is helping immensely with getting back in synch, curbing anxiety, and making me feel as if, for that moment, I am where I am supposed to be. Lyn, it is a great comfort to read your thoughts, we are chronological cohorts, to not feel one is all alone.
Thank you.
P.S. I share your admiration of Yamamoto and CdG.
It is good for me to have company on this journey too, thank you. The greatest challenge as you describe is staying regulated. My meditation is walking, I do about 5 miles a day.
When uncertainty and anxiety reach a critical mass in my mind, I take a time out and do some yoga. I just recently started, and it is helping immensely with getting back in synch, curbing anxiety, and making me feel as if, for that moment, I am where I am supposed to be. Lyn, it is a great comfort to read your thoughts, we are chronological cohorts, to not feel one is all alone.
Thank you.
P.S. I share your admiration of Yamamoto and CdG.
It is good for me to have company on this journey too, thank you. The greatest challenge as you describe is staying regulated. My meditation is walking, I do about 5 miles a day.
This is one of the best posts of yours! At list, it has a lot of meanings to me! Thank you! And I always take a walk into your posts! Always find great ideas and inspiring words!
Thanks so much for letting me know. I love how you described it.
This is one of the best posts of yours! At list, it has a lot of meanings to me! Thank you! And I always take a walk into your posts! Always find great ideas and inspiring words!
Thanks so much for letting me know. I love how you described it.
you’re an interesting woman Lyn, and what you have to say is thoughtful. But you look ridiculous here.
you’re an interesting woman Lyn, and what you have to say is thoughtful. But you look ridiculous here.
While I think that Linda’s comment may be a little blunt, as an ardent admirer of yours I tend to agree. Your writing is always eloquent and thought-provoking, but I’m finding the pics less and less something that I’m even remotely interested in. My favorites were the earlier ones, taken by Calvin with skill and affection, of a beautifully fit professional woman who presented herself with quirky creativity and taste. Your "look" was as identifiable as YOU as is your lovely writing. Some of these newer outfits, apparently styled by others, don’t sync with what my image of you is—I realize that’s sometimes the point. I guess that what I’m saying is that I consider you a MUCH better stylist than some of these "shock-of-the-new" deconstructionist youngsters. Whatever direction the winds of change take you I remain a fan of your questing spirit, but yearn to periodically see a relateable roll-model.
While I think that Linda’s comment may be a little blunt, as an ardent admirer of yours I tend to agree. Your writing is always eloquent and thought-provoking, but I’m finding the pics less and less something that I’m even remotely interested in. My favorites were the earlier ones, taken by Calvin with skill and affection, of a beautifully fit professional woman who presented herself with quirky creativity and taste. Your "look" was as identifiable as YOU as is your lovely writing. Some of these newer outfits, apparently styled by others, don’t sync with what my image of you is—I realize that’s sometimes the point. I guess that what I’m saying is that I consider you a MUCH better stylist than some of these "shock-of-the-new" deconstructionist youngsters. Whatever direction the winds of change take you I remain a fan of your questing spirit, but yearn to periodically see a relateable roll-model.
Wonderful article, deep thoughts, I have been following you since the beginning Lynn and I often wondered how is it possible to be so focused and together… what a relief to find out you experience the same uncertainties as the rest of us. .. at 72 the speed of everyday life and the care of my 98 year old father leaves no room for long term planning and one of my small joys is reading your blog with a cup of coffee and just plan the day… thank you for the enjoyment and yes I like your mostly black and and white phase the best. Your ads over here in Germany are quite popular and are often talked about in my small "older" circle but you are truly an inspiration for all ages.
Beste Gruesse, Dorothee
Wonderful article, deep thoughts, I have been following you since the beginning Lynn and I often wondered how is it possible to be so focused and together… what a relief to find out you experience the same uncertainties as the rest of us. .. at 72 the speed of everyday life and the care of my 98 year old father leaves no room for long term planning and one of my small joys is reading your blog with a cup of coffee and just plan the day… thank you for the enjoyment and yes I like your mostly black and and white phase the best. Your ads over here in Germany are quite popular and are often talked about in my small "older" circle but you are truly an inspiration for all ages.
Beste Gruesse, Dorothee
Linda, why not step outside your comfort zone and embrace what you find ridiculous ! – We know that the sublime and the ridiculous is nearly related !
Since our image of beauty is mostly based on ideals that have developed during our life time, the perception of beauty (mostly) becomes very subjective.
To me Lyn looks elegant and very independent, creative and inspirational. The hair is gorgeous and I love the ear rings
Linda, why not step outside your comfort zone and embrace what you find ridiculous ! – We know that the sublime and the ridiculous is nearly related !
Since our image of beauty is mostly based on ideals that have developed during our life time, the perception of beauty (mostly) becomes very subjective.
To me Lyn looks elegant and very independent, creative and inspirational. The hair is gorgeous and I love the ear rings
I’m 27 and this blog provides me with a comfort that I’ve long yearned for. I revel in your uncertainty Lyn. I appreciate your ability to live fully in your truth. I’m still searching for me. What I do know for certain is the things that make me feel alive and the things that don’t. Guess ill start there.
-Scarlett
I’m 27 and this blog provides me with a comfort that I’ve long yearned for. I revel in your uncertainty Lyn. I appreciate your ability to live fully in your truth. I’m still searching for me. What I do know for certain is the things that make me feel alive and the things that don’t. Guess ill start there.
-Scarlett
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